Thursday, October 8, 2015

Showing up mess and all

Glennon Melton and BrenĂ© Brown have changed my world. They have changed how I view things. Glennon reminded me today that Showing up is greater than Showing off.  Show up. Be real. That's what I need more of right now.

Living in a new town and making new friends as an adult isn't easy. I'm so grateful one of these new friends reached out and was real about her need to BE REAL and say how hard life is right now.  I appreciate that soooo much. I want to hug her and tell her it's ok. That I'm lost too.  Together. We are all just walking each other home.  

I have been so exhausted lately and I'm not sure why.  Motherhood. Adulthood.  Allergies. Depression. Going off meds and changing up my body chemistry. Diet. Lack of exercise. Seasons changing.  Yes. All of it.

So I went to bed early last night, like 8pm instead of midnight.  I feel better today. And when I woke up I read Glennons real post about showing up.  And it answered something in me.  

I am spiritual by nature. I feel connected to others without explanation. I FEEL a lot. That's what I'm noticing more being off the meds.  I feel more without them.  The bad and the Good.  So I'm not sure what my next move will be but I'm grateful for the rest as respite I got last night.