"Sometimes it is BRAVE to close your doors."
-April Day aka Scabs <3
This ^
So much THIS^^
This
picture brings me such joy. It is saturated with LOVE.
The
flowers were a timely reminder that I am loved that came at a low point from
dear friends who knew I needed a little pick-me-up. I love flowers. I love roses.
I love bright colors. There is
something to me about fresh REAL flowers that remind me to take a moment and
enjoy the beauty because it won’t last forever.
I had the sense of mind to also take this photo so I could recall that
wisdom at other needed times.
The
butterflies remind me that “Just when the caterpillar thought her life was
over, she woke up and found she had wings.”
Butterflies have since become a motif in my life. If I were to ever get a tattoo it would be a
butterfly. (But ew- I hate needles…)
In
the background is a collage of pictures from Camp. Camp
changed my life. I can’t point to one
particular moment, because it was a collection of things. So many things. Like
the money from a generous donor that made my scholarship possible so I could
go. My heart is touched by this
self-proclaimed “baller” and I look for little ways to pay it forward. The women that gathered at a cabin in the
snowy mountains became my sisters. Soul
cleansing Yoga. “Leave it on the mat.” Bizzare
Pictionary to break the ice (and boy did that ice BREAK!). Lovingly prepared food. Standing barefoot in
the snow to solidify our sisterhood. So much beauty. I want to do it all again.
Every year.
The
necklace I wear most days is my reminder to Kill My Own Buffalo and Be BRAVE. Which has double
meaning to me: You see, my good friend,
Buffalo Gal was my light in the darkness.
At the bottom of the well she showed me I wasn’t alone. I didn’t know her at the time that I found her
blog. But I have come to know her and
love her dearly and am better for her presence in my life. (And I’m writing
this at work and tearing up guys, good thing we’re slow tonight.) Someday we
will be sitting by the lake, sipping lemonade and letting our boys run wild
together. I look forward to this. So much.
My
ringtone is Sara Barellis’s “Brave”.
Which
brings me full circle. To Scab’s quote that sometimes it is BRAVE to close our
doors. To pull our kids from activities,
to say NO, to be KIND to ourselves.
Every
time I say “No” to someone or something I am also saying “YES” to someone or
something else.
So
today I did something BRAVE.
I
deactivated my Facebook account. I need
some time and space from the opinions of others so I can hear myself. Because I
MATTER.
