Sickness travels.
My body is telling me to slow down.
Walk.
Sit.
Be.
When inside I feel the urge to run from things I can't hide from. The ugly parts of me that I don't want to own.
I think it is no coincidence that it all comes at a time when I have stated out loud my desire to be healthier. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. And I think that I'm learning that to do this is a LONG process. Not over in a day. My counselor suggests that when we train for a marathon it is long hard work that can't be done in a single try.
This is not what I expected.
I imagined getting/being healthy would look like cute workout clothes and ENERGY! Lots of energy to Go and Do and CONQUER! And I'm finding the mental/emotional battle is HARD.
EXHAUSTING.
My body is exhausted.
So I'm trying to slow down.
Not just "take care of me" but to truly Care FOR me.
This morning I started with a visit to the eye doctor. I've been to the chiropractor, hospital for x-rays of my back, medical doctor for body, counselor for mind, and some wise authors for spirit. I AM taking charge of my life.
I just had no idea it would be this exhausting.
(Not to mention raising 3 boys and working to build a healthy relationship with my husband...)
Just reading all of that reminds me that it is a LOT of work and that I have every right to be exhausted.
So here's to naptime! May it come swiftly and without anger.
It IS exhausting. It isn't easy to take care of oneself. Go YOU. You are a rockstar and superwoman. I'm glad you are recognizing your needs and taking care of yourself in that way. I'm also trying to slow down.
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